I messed up. I messed up so big I’m not sure I’ll ever be welcome on the team ever again. It’s probably a good thing there’s no team right now and might never be again.
For the last week, I’ve wanted to just scream at FF and demand to know what she was thinking leaving HD’s life in the hands of a psychopath like HM. But I felt like if I talked to her about it, I would end up screaming and breaking things. It was just so stupid…
Chance came back. Finally. I was actually happy to see him. I thought, maybe, he could find a way to make things be normal again, instead of all of us just trying to work around each other… I don’t know.
Anyway, we didn’t get the chance. IL decided now is as good a time as any to round up all metahumans. I’m assuming she tracked HD to us, because the rest of us wear masks and have superhero names. Or, come to think of it, I guess Chance doesn’t wear a mask either, but he isn’t the one who got arrested last week either. Anyway, so we try to tell Frog to escape with HD…and he somehow teleports the whole room to a rooftop.
And then he faints.
FF reminds us that TG’s files on all of us are there — like we didn’t already know — and takes off to get them, except a Medic with a jetpack (A JETPACK) appears and takes her out. HD tries to rescue her and gets taken down too. And I… I just freeze. What the fuck am I supposed to do? Try to save them? Get the files? Protect Frog, who is unconscious now? I try to think of what TG would do, and all I can hear is all his lectures about keeping my identity a secret…so we run.
Stupid, stupid, stupid.
Chance gets some police officers to take us to the hospital, where they poke and prod the pair of us until we finally get them to understand we’re both fine. They put us in the lobby, where we can watch the roundup on the news. I’m sitting there wondering if TG has been found when they announce TA has been arrested. How the hell did they find him so quick?
Apparently Chance managed to rescue FF and HD, and they bolted when he stopped for donuts. Chance shows up at the hospital in a Medic tank and dressed as IL — thanks, Chance. Anyway, we’re trying to figure out what to do next, and I let slip FF’s name. I don’t know why — it just comes out, and, of course, I can’t take it back. Frog’s playing with the tank’s computer looking for information when IL – the real IL – suddenly calls us over the radio. It doesn’t take long for her to figure out Chance is the driver, so we ditch the car and hail a cab.
FF calls to check in — and for just a second, I’m so relieved she and HD are okay that I do it again. And, of course, Chance just has to put in his two cents, and…and then she gets pissed and hangs up. And she’s got a right to be upset — secrets are important, and I just gave away her biggest one.
And because Chance is sitting right there, I let him have it. What I really wanted to do — still want to do — is find something to destroy, because crushing my phone just doesn’t do anything to relieve the pressure. And as soon as I started yelling at Chance, I just couldn’t stop, even though he had just saved all of us. Because I’m angry, and if I can’t beat something into dust, then at least I can destroy the one thing I have left right now. Or something like that.
So I jump out of the cab and storm off. I have no idea why Frog’s following me, but I just don’t have the energy to deal with his bullshit right now. He’s better off with the team. If he comes with me, he’s going to get killed.
I just want to take this entire day back and do it right this time…and not piss off every single member of the team. But that’s not possible, is it? But I’ll make it up to them. I’m going to destroy those files, maybe even free some of the metahumans they’ve arrested. The Medic files say I’m dangerous — they have no idea just how dangerous I can be.